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2006-10-24T16:03:00.000+08:00

Moved to

http://mynameisnotkakaboo.blogspot.com

2006-10-01T17:43:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. sian sure retain liao lah..

At least retain can retake SPA PW and maybe take a H3 subject.. and not be the first batch of guinea pigs to take the new exam syllabus :) !!! but is that really what I want? My past few SPA also screwd up.. but whatever !!!@$#@$#@#@%

2006-08-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

Sian ah, really don't know what to do with my life or what's happening to it already. Thank god I made some friends from dotaportal and the conversations made them reflect a lot upon my current life. I seem to have no life now.. haiz.. wonder what's the cause behind all these and whether there will be any ways to solve it...... and her...

2006-08-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

I decided to post something for such a long time. After all, it's a blog.

Something.

There you go.

2006-05-07T19:19:00.000+08:00

seriously i think i need conselling(did i spell that right?)

hmmmmmmmmmmmm i think im addicted to the computer. basically life is just school->home->com->eat->bathe->sleep->school-> and repeat..... what? no studying????????????????? crap man i really don want to waste my 2 years in tpjc argggggggg ahehfehfkhasdjfhsdf

forget about that aojfahaif just need something to vent my frustation on asifajhlkfjheuihrfhfds

well and before i forget i think i saw carista today whos she? my pri sch friend but i wasnt too sure so never go say hi haha later mistaken wrong person she think i want to jio her..... but i don ok nvm ok bb

well doesnt this post seem so childish like a kid is blogging. well seriously how i wish i could remain a child and be in sec 4 or p6 FOREVER.................................

WAKE UP KELVIN FACE UP TO REALITY LIFE IS HARSH. WHY? ARE WE BORN INTO THIS WORLD JUST TO WORK AND STUDY WORK AND STUDY WORK AND STUDY???????????????????????????????????????????????????

2006-04-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

What shall I blog about? Hmm..

Felt like long time never update so wanted to update it, but this will be somehow in a hurry too because I'm going to sleep soon...........

Crap man common test is coming and I'm still so slack, everyday go school do nothing but daydream, come home do what? Watch tv play computer games....................................At this rate I'm going I think I will fail my common test 100%

going to change the blog skin soon, no time. well actually i got time but ispent it all on games. .................... crap i need to change my attitude ahhhhh someone help me please please please!!

seriously need someone that i can talk to...................................................................................................

2006-04-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

Now I'm missing my secondary school life. In the past when teachers told us that when you go to JC, you would be bound to miss your secondary school life, and I didn't believe it at that time. At that time, I thought, wow I just want to get over with O levels. But now, I think otherwise. How true the statement is that you only learn to treasure things after you lose them.

In primary school, I couldn't wait to get to secondary school. In secondary school, I couldn't wait to get into a poly or a JC. Now I'm in a JC, how I wish I was still in primary school or secondary school. I think I have choosen the wrong route. I should have went to a poly. I know, people think poly is very slack, but in actual fact it isn't. There's also a certain amount of stress there, with many datelines to meet for projects. But then I would enjoy doing projects rather than looking at notes and trying to do frustrating questions from tutorials.

Seriously, I really want to study. But whenever I look at my tutorials, 1st question I already don't know how to do. How do you expect me to continue? I seriously think I make a lot of wrong decisions in life. I hope I won't make them for my future life. I should have taken computing. At least I have some interest in it. I should have I should have.. Maybe I just worry too much. Not everything can go your way in life. Guess we have to try to live with it and make the best out of it.

By the way, seriously no one would believe i join ODAC. Actually I joined it because I thought it would be fun, and bring some life out in me. I enjoyed the first activity, but now, there's like no activities in 2-3weeks? or 4? It just sucks man... All along I had been using it as my moral booster.

Right now, I seriously need someone who I can talk to, who I can confide in. I guess I can't complain, I have no courage or guts to initiate the first move. So how will I know?

2006-04-09T14:29:00.001+08:00

ever wondered why my updated posts are in between such a long period? ever wondered why my posts are so short? they actually are very short, it's just that it looks long on this skin. :)

well, actually it's because partly I'm lazy, and also I do not try to remember what i want to write when i blog. so it ends up me being in a hurry to blog therefore i never spend more than 5minutes writing a blog entry. If i spend more than 5minutes, i guarantee that the post will be damn #@$#@4 long

im facing the same troouble right now during the o's. i havent overcome it yet. how how how!!!!!!i so badly want to get a scholarship but theres just no motivation in me. i just feel... when i see the books and the questions. they are just so dam hard u do one only u don feel like doing anymore..

2006-04-09T14:29:00.000+08:00

2006-04-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

Cannot express myself in words. Don't know what to say. Tests and exams are like so near and I'm like not caring for it at all. Not really, just I feel like I'm being torn into 2 parts, one wants to study and one wants to play. But the one that wants to play always get what he wants. I think it's probably I lack motivation. Actually I don't even know what I want to be when I grow up. So, I have no goal. My temporary goal is Engineering, but I do not seem to have much interest for it. I had planned to start on my tutorials like 2-3 weeks ago, but I only do those compulsory questions. I'm supposed to finish all!!

Partly because I cant use the internet at night so I play right away when I reach home. But I think that's all just excuses, because if I can use it at night I believe I will use it also for leisure, instead of work.

THIS JUST SUCKS MAN.

2006-04-02T14:37:00.000+08:00

Damn tired and shag man! Had ODAC camp during the last 2 days. It was really fun, although very tiring. Definitely much better than TPJC orientation 2. Better than NYJC orientation 1 by a bit. What surprises me is how come there's only so little people joining ODAC. There are like 800+ year 1 intakes this year, but only 32++ joining ODAC??? That just sucks, doesn't it? Although sometimes too many people isn't too good because you won't get to know each other very well.

I shan't go into much of the activities.. too tired. If you want to know about the activities you can go here
http://get-real-up-out-lost-back.blogspot.com/

So many homework to pass up tomorrow also. Damn. Haven't even thought of a PI yet

2006-03-29T19:15:00.000+08:00

JC life is so horrible man. I reach home everyday on most of the days after 5pm. Mostly near 6. Then I cannot stand not playing at least an hour of game, so by the time I finish it and bath and eat, it's already near 7.30. How to get any work done man? Honestly, I sleep at 9 on most of the days. You may not believe it but it's true! The latest I sleep is 10. Unless under certain circumstances.

Seriously, I wonder do any of you believe in fate. Personally I didn't believe it much till I got into NYJC for PAE. I feel that the class is very special to me, and it's a special stop for me in my life. Although it had only been a short 2 months, I felt closer to them than others that have been with me since secondary school. Not really closer, just somehow I feel that I miss them now. Only now do I finally understand what it is like to miss someone.

I'm not saying I'm not close to my other friends now, maybe I just don't miss them because they are always with me. Ok , come to think of it I missed them during my 1st 2 months too. But I didn't dwell on it too much.

I think the reason why the class is so fun because there was Charmane. She helped us all bond together. Still remember when we had to return only 4-5 frisbees after P.E and she forced the whole class to go together. Haha. She was the chairman anyways. But I somehow feel sad for her because she got 15 for O levels. 15 isn't too bad, but she failed her english. Just one more point lesser and she could have got into a JC. So now she feels a little sad because she can't get into a JC.

Is it true that people will only learn to treasure things after they have lost it? I guess so. Because they take it for granted when they are beside you. Some things are like living air, you can't see it, yet you can't live without it.

Guess I'm really on my own now.

Sigh. How am I going to pass this 1 3/4 years?Hope ODAC will let me find my true self and cheer me up.

2006-03-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

Sian, wanted to get some work during this weekend, but guess not. I need to get this straight once and for all with myself. I need to start NOW!! This isn't the same as O's or PSLE, this is well.. sigh.

First trouble maker- Project Work. How would we know how to do it when we have never done it before in such a proper way! And it constitutes 10% omg! That just sucks, doesn't it?

Well, you won't get to know much about my life from my blog. Why? Haha, because somehow I feel that I left out a lot of things because I felt it isn't appriopriate. Then why have a blog? I don't know either. For fun. Haha.

2006-03-23T17:22:00.000+08:00

Nothing to blog about nowadays. Guess I'll have to cure my addiction of the computer soon. I can feel it, it's like the A levels are starting next week. Well, it's true to a certain extent. Now there's SPA, which are tested during our 2 year stay. That means A level starts now! And Chinese, first paper is in June or July, can you believe it!

Whatever, tomorrow I'm going to get rid of these troublesome metal buttons! Woohoooooo!!!! What does that means? It implys a brand new start for me!! Woohoooooooooooooooooooooo!!!Can you believe it! A person like me joined ODAC as CCA. Bet you can't! HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA

ok, I'm crazy. Forget it.
AHAHAHAHAHA

2006-03-19T13:48:00.000+08:00

Finally the class posting is out. Kept wondering how the people in my class would be like. Sometimes I think that I just think too much. You may think, "isn't that good? Teachers always encourage us to think." But the problem is, I don't think about them when I'm using the computer or playing computer games. I tend to think about them when I'm trying to study and my efforts always come to nought because of that. I also tend to think about them when I'm not at home, when I'm outside, making me unable to concentrate on whatever I'm doing outside, be it whatever. That's the reason why you will find that I'm not looking at you or listening to you when we're having a conversation.

I need to cut down on the time on the computer already. In TPJC, I know that if you want to do well you have to say No to a lot of things but it's just too difficult for me. I wish I hadn't bought the disc, so I would have no games to play at home now. Damn.

Anyways, I seem to find that I sometimes can't differentiate dreams from reality, or vice versa. Yesterday, seemingly I received a call from ODAC asking about the orientation camp. But when I asked my other friends who signed up for it also, they didn't receive any call from them. What worries me is that that may have been a dream. And I can't confirm it by checking my phone because I remembered erasing my recent call lists. Guess next time I'll have to get a book to write down my dreams so I will remember what's real and what's a dream. It may seem ridiculous to you but I tell you it's so eerie to me. Some of my dreams really happened in real life. Then my friend told me it was because your brain waves sent the image too fast or too slow can't remember, making it seem like a dream. But it isn't just once, it's like 5 or more times already.

Who cares if that call was from a dream or for real. I'll just treat it for real for the moment.

Back to the topic that I wanted to talk about. Wonder how my classmates will be like? Haha. Just hope that all of us are doing the same combinations because I don't want it to be like in NYJC last time where got one do different combination, making him feel somehow extra. But then, in Chinese lessons we're spilt into 3 groups. That sucks, doesn't it? The other classes didn't get spilt. Wonder why we did. Hope we will be together as a class for the other subjects so that we have more chances to know each other better.

2006-03-11T19:19:00.000+08:00

sian la, tampines JC like so backwards like that. Other JCs all use internet to register their subject combinations we use paper! Then the 1st intake notes also, never put on the website. Have to queue for them. See the queue also sian, don't want buy liao..

then the tutors there like want us to know what Jc education is all about. Seemed demoralizing but it's for our own good la..

One said something about coming to TPJC is either or 2-year or 3-year course with mostly 3-years.. get what it means?

then one said you come to JC to get As, not to pass.

then another one said why ask about University admission rate? then say you should ask how many % get into the course they want.

haiz...............hate the person who invented dota.. i feel so sian of it but still want to play la what the hell

hope i get into a fun class without those "people"

sorry i type in broken english. well no one cares anyway since nobody comes here because I never advertise hahaha

2006-03-10T18:05:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeeeee finally Orientation is over! But it didn't seem like an orientation to me anyway. Just plain old boring inductory lectures and they expect everyone to go. What a waste of people's time. No wonder no one wants to attend the lectures. All run off. This orientation sucks anyway. The OGLs seem to be there as statues and placements. No group interaction. Lucky we interact ourselves or else I think I wouldn't have known anybody till now.

Although I had said that I didn't mind being in TPJC, but now after the Project Work talk, I feel kind of scared. What if I get grouped with those "cannot be bothered" people? What if I get grouped with those unreasonable people that don't want to do anything? I'm so terribly scared. 10% of A level results is a lot!

That aside, I've set my mind that I want to achieve at least distinctions in all my content-based subject and Mother Tongue. For GP, well, we'll see. Yes, I hope this time it's for real. Hope it won't be like in the past during O levels when it was just plain empty talk.

2006-03-06T16:42:00.000+08:00

Sian. Why do people like to ask the same thing over and over again. Why did I not put Nanyang as my first choice? Well, actually I don't know either. So when I replied them honestly they were like... cannot put it to words. So what? So now people keep askinng me to appeal, appeal and appeal. Where got so easy to appeal one. So easy appeal no need JAE posting system, just go school and appeal. By the way, here's a diversion. I wonder why my shoelaces keep falling out. Even when I tie double knots they still come out. Weird. So peoepl keep telling me my shoelaces are out and I have to tie them over and over again which makes no sense because they just fall out again!! So I decided not to tie them and they keep telling me that my shoelaces are out. I know they mean good, but well..

Anyway, I think there isn't much difference between TPJC and NYJC. The only striking difference is that I need to take 15more minutes to reach there. Other than that, I don't find anything else that will make me take my life.

Although I must say NYJC had been a place during my first three months. I learnt a lot of valuable lessons when I was there. Especially during Economics. I learnt that life is actually making a lot of decisions, when even not making a decision is making a decision in itself. I learnt to be contented with what I have. Maybe that's why I feel that I can adapt to TPJC. So what if I get into NYJC? So what if I get into TPJC? So what if you get into TJ, VJ, RJ, HCI? Ultimately, we all have the same goal. To get into a University. So does it really matters where I go? I don't really mind.. Unless it's somewhere really far like Innova or Jurong...

In the end I decided not to appeal because I was too lazy to make a trip down, and I felt that it was useless to appeal. So, good luck to those appealing to NY!! Because you have one less competitor! :)

2006-02-26T18:17:00.000+08:00

I'm back!! Oh my god i feel so dumb